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search for a righted world
I don’t remember ever being so frazzled by travel before. I’ve usually really enjoyed the adventure as I made my way somewhere new or familiar. This time was different. Even packing and cleaning my house before leaving and making arrangements felt more laborious than ever before, almost like I’d never packed before in terms of…
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lava finds its way to the surface and destroys the landscape
Sometimes, I’m an awful individual to the people closest or most impactful to me. Usually this is because I get so wrapped up in experiencing suffering that I feel it’s down to survival to strike preemptively even if there’s not an immediate threat. The lessons of the destructiveness I can inflict while in this state…
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Moveable feats
Recovery continues to be a good slog. I can drive now, and use a cane much more often than crutches. I’ve been to the store more than a few times, take myself to the swimming pool, and attend physical therapy as an outpatient nearby. Sometimes, afterwards, I’ll pick up a coffee, and because I don’t…
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Going places
The PAM has lofted a new program called VR to Go, where one rents a pre-programmed Oculus headset for a weekend. It sold out fast, I reserved a headset in November for this past weekend. The friend I shared the rental with drove us into town on Friday to pick it up, we watched it…
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twigs and feathers
Now I’m back in my place having returned from the nether-region of things that are hidden from most US citizens that was life in skilled nursing. Some combination of boredom, necessity, a low-key birthday and simple need led me down the path of prime day shopping. As much as I hate Jeff Bezos, I was…
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Peaks & Valleys
Last month, for the first time since February 2020, I boarded an airplane. The Delta variant had just started to kick up, but my backpacking friend and I took every possible precaution. We had booked campsites in advance as well as kayaking and boating expeditions. We used a rideshare app called Turo to book automobiles…
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Körperkontrol by Bike
People may think of bicycling as a very individual sport, but actually there’s a lot to be said for teamwork to create a good ride, especially for safety reasons where one might be off the grid on back forest roads. So while one concept of body is the individual, as a group one becomes part…
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hollowed pride
The above image chronicles the last time I played chess with my dad. I was almost 9 the day that I beat him. He snapped a polaroid, bragged about it to others, and never played with me again. Eventually I found other people to play with, one friend who was a boy, and mostly boys…
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Unpacking joy
It’s now about 2 weeks since I moved, the unpacking goes on. I keep finding more things to get rid of. When I was a summer camp counselor, they trained us up about how to help homesick campers: home is a place one returns to, but to return one has to venture out. So I…
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“Juliette Balcony”
Life has begun to move here again, with vaccines in bodies, the sun and spring blossoms compelling people out of doors, the optimism of beginnings of recovery under the Biden administration. For me, this has meant that it’s time to move. I’m lucky to have the circumstances surrounding it be amicable with plenty of lead…